| Location | Liverpool |
| Age | 0 |
| Date of Birth | 4/2007 |
| Date of Death | 4/2007 |
| Visitors | 1,561 since 16/04/2007 |
| Creator |
On April 7 2007 at 21.35 hours my nephew, Sam, died in his mummy's arms. Sam had osteogenesis
imperfecta type 2 and his very brave mummy and daddy decided to take him off the ventilator at
around seven that evening. My lovely nephew was held, kissed, cuddled and bathed by his mummy and
daddy.
I'm so devastated for my sister, but when I think of Sam my heart breaks, I wanted so much to
do all the things an aunty does and hold him close but now Sam's funeral is on Thursday and I
don't want it, I want him to be alive.
Sam has three sisters, Kristina, Anya and Isabella, loads of cousins, Ben, Beth, Nate, Kiera and
Jana and I know they would love Sam.
I feel like Maria's pregnancy was a whirlwind, I feel so heartbroken for Maria and Ian, Sam
was so beautiful and after three lovely daughters, the son they dearly wanted.
Sleep tight, little Sam, my gorgeous little man,
lots of love
Aunty T xxxx
packed your clothes away.
packed your things away the other day and it really hurt felt like your loss happening all over again wish I did not have to do this .... want you home with me but it is never going to happen I would do anything to bring you back!! will love you always and it will never diminish sweet dreams tonight love mummy daddy krissy anya and isabella XXX
Hello Sam
Dear Sam,
Thank you so much for letting your mummy feel you, it means so much and I think she is comforted, I hope you are happy with Nana Martin. Thank you for coming to see me, I can feel you and hope to speak to you soon when it is quiet and you feel ready. Play happy little man, love you millions
Tracy xxxxx
felt your presence last night!
hi darling
felt you were with me last night, been waiting for you sweetheart to let me know you are ok. miss you sunshine and miss how I never get to hold you anymore wish you were at home with us! love you sooo much!!!! XXXXX love hugs and kisses mummy XXXX
I miss you so much my heart has a break in it that won't heal
Samuel I had my first proper cry since your funeral,
your gorgeous sisters keep me busy so mummy has little time to release her grief so I feel it will take me such a long time but I will get there, but I will never ever forget you and carry you with me always!! When I hold your sisters and kiss them its as close as I'm gonna get to you so you make sure you get your kisses and hugs as I'm sending them up to you on the speed of my love!!! I love you so much never forget that love Mummy XXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
Samuel my angel baby
Samuel has been gone from us since 07.04.2007 and we miss him so very much,having to let him go and not being able to do anything about it was heartbreaking,his funeral was 19 04 2007 and we gave him a lovely send off it was so bittersweet.my sisters did their own readings they wrote and read a verse for me they were so very brave in doing this, I still ache for him and wish he was here with us!
My darling Sam,
Today was your funeral and it was so heartbreaking, it took my breath away to see you put into the ground. It felt like losing you all over again. My heart aches to see your mummy and daddy left with such sadness, we all felt the grief and pain as we put flowers in your grave.
I try to draw some comfort from the fact that you are with your great nana but all that I can think is I wanted to see you alive with us.
We all wrote many beautiful things to say about you on tags I made and your mummy, daddy, Krissie and Nessie went to Otterspool Promenade to let them go, attached to lovely blue balloons with teddies and winnie the pooh on. I wish that today hadn't happened but I feel that if you were watching from wherever you are, you couldn't help to know you were loved.
I hope to see you again, little man Sam and remember I love you and will always think of you.
Lots of love
Aunty T XXX
Dear Sam,
I thought long and hard about what I wanted to say today, and the words were slow to come, because this was not what I wanted to face.
What I wanted was the happiness of celebrating your birth, I wanted to some and see you and hold you in my arms, and then when you grew and began to toddle, to hold your hands as you took your first steps, to watch you grow and help you blow the candles out on your cake when you reached your first birthday.
when we found out your were special, none of this changed, in fact, the love we felt for you as a family increased. We all felt you would be as special and unique and cherished as all the children connected to us.
Now I find that you have to leave us, and I am sad. But above all these sentiments of sorrow and loss what I wanted to say was Thank You, Sam, thank you for the hope and joy, however short, you bought to our lives. Thank you for the excitement you bought to us when we bought you clothes and thought of the toys you would like, thank you for the times when I can imagine what could have been and see clearly in my heart that you will never be touched by the pain this world can bring.
I want you to know that we will always think of you, not as a child lost, but as a child who taught us the meaning of family, reminded me to love dearly, to find light in the darkest of places, to find joy in the midst of suffering. That there shall always be the feeling of loss in my life but that's alright, because it means you were there and I carry that with me always because it reminds me of you and the hope you bought to our lives.
Sleep tight, my lovely Sam
Aunty T xxx
Tomorrow is your funeral and it's going to be so hard, I will miss you and your mummy is finding it so hard, she says that tomorrow will feel like losing you all over again, she feels like the last thing she has is you and once you are buried she will nothing. I will comfort her as well as I can and remind her that she will always have you deep in her heart and that I will always talk about you and think about you all the time. Send your mummy some kisses, please, little man.
love
Aunty T xxx
Hi Sam
Hi little man Sam,
Today I went and ordered your flowers today for your funeral and that was really hard. I also bought your mummy a frame to put your picture in, I feel really sad that these are the only thing I can do for your mummy, that all we have now are memories, when we should have you.
Yesterday I went to see your mummy, daddy and your sisters, I think your mummy would love a cuddle, she misses you so much and fell asleep with your hat and dummy.
I feel so sad that your mummy bought a suit to bury you in when it should be for you to wear while you gurgle and sleep in your cot.
Before you were born mummy and daddy bought you a beautiful white rocking crib to sleep in, you would have looked so cute and comfy in it.
Goodbye for today, Sam, speak tomorrow,
love Aunty T xxx
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